Monday, April 13, 2009

...and now I'm not.

Second beta number: 131.

Not enough.

Either a chemical pregnancy, or ectopic.

Either way, I'm numb.

25 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry. I came over from LFCA and am crushed to see your news. Thinking of you.

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  2. Oh no. I am so so sorry. You're in my thoughts.

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  3. I'm sorry to read that it's not a bigger number but don't lose hope yet. I've known alot of people who's beta's climb slowly and they've gone on to have healthy babies....it's not over til it's over.

    xxx

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  4. Oh no! I'm so, so sorry. I was shocked to see your post. I'm hoping Bodhi (above) is right, and it's too early to completely lose hope. Still, this is terrible news and I feel for you and your husband.

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  5. No! Oh, I am so sorry. I can't even imagine how devastated you must be. Is there any chance it can still climb? I wish I were there to give you a big, huge hug.

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  6. I'm so sorry!! This is total shit.

    Thinking of you.

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  7. please, please don't say it will climb. I know you mean well, I know that. But it won't.

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  8. oh my God, you. i'm so, so, so, so sorry... i pray it is not an ectopic.

    damn it. i'm so, so, so, so sorry.

    and on the other end of the line if you want/need to talk.

    ((((((you and your beloved)))))))

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  10. You don't know me, but I've been following your blog rabidly (I start IVF #1 in May, and love your blog). I was so happy for you over the weekend, and seriously felt like I was punched in the stomach today reading your update. I can't even imagine how you feel. I am so very, very sorry. Please take care of yourself-- time for lots of nurturing.

    --Andrea

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  11. Oh dear. That is such sad news.

    Giving you a huge hug, and letting you know that we are all standing with you, shoulder to shoulder, giving you support. You might not see us, but we are there, thinking of you and your Husband.

    Cheryl

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  12. I'm so sorry. A chemical pregnancy is still a sucker punch to the guts, I've had one of those (where my initial beta was 700-something and the second was 795) and it hurt almost as bad as the other first trimester miscarriages. This sucks. There is nothing I could say or do to make you feel better. I know it probably sounds sick but I hope you get your period soon, that way, get the shitty physical part of it over. Of course the emotional takes a lot, lot longer.

    Sending you a hug from across the miles. and I fucking hope its not ectopic.

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  13. I am so sad to read this. I am praying for you today.

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  14. Just wanted to check in again today and tell you how much I've been thinking of you. Actually, I couldn't sleep thinking of what you must be going through. And, I'm sorry if my question above was hurtful.

    Sending lots of love your way.

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  15. I am so so sorry. (((hugs)))

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  16. I am praying for you. I am so sorry to hear this news. Hang in there and take care of yourself!

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  17. I am so sorry to hear your news, it seems so terribly unfair! I really feel for you.

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  18. Over from L&F. I wish I had some sage advice or even assvice, but the truth is, it just sucks. I am so sorry.

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  19. I'm so sorry. I had a chemical a few weeks ago and it just sucks.

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  20. Oh, no....I am crushed to see this news. I'm thinking of and praying for you today. I am so sorry.

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  21. I am so sorry...(over from lost and found)

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  22. So sorry for you & your husband. There are no words to express, but know that you are in many thoughts and hearts.

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