Monday, February 22, 2010

beta #2 - and uncharted territory

All weekend, I kept telling myself that today would be fine, the number would be fine, everything would be fine. I kept saying this over and over again in my head, but it was like I hit a wall every time I said it - I just couldn't make myself believe that it could be true.

Today's beta needed to be at least 700. It was 1039.

I am a little anxious about how many little people might be growing in there, exactly, and I am also mostly in shock about this - but I am hugely relieved.

We are now in uncharted territory. Last time, this was the day when it all came crashing down around us, when what would be diagnosed as an ectopic pregnancy nearly broke our hearts.

This time, I know there are a million things that could go wrong. I know that. But I'm so, so happy to be here. In the uncharted territory. Where I almost threw up in the car this morning on the way back from the RE's, and not because of nerves, and have never been so delighted to be slightly queasy in my life. (A feeling I'm sure will pass at the speed of light, but whatever.)

My first ultrasound appointment is March 15th.

30 years ago today, the U.S. hockey team pulled off the 'Miracle on Ice.' I guess it's just a good day for miracles.

33 comments:

  1. oh, oh, yay, yay, yay!!!!!

    I was so nervous reading your post thinking 'oh, please no...'

    continue to keep us posted please! holy 1039!!! :)

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  2. Yay!!!! That sounds awesome! And yes, you will get tired of the nausea, but it's still totally worth it! I'm betting you have twins =)

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  3. Your story is so like mine it makes me cry. I too was diagnosed with infertility. Tried clomid and it worked on the second round - only to turn out to be an ectopic pregnancy. Then tried injectibles and finally got pregnant - found out a week ago. On 14dpo, hcg was 231 and 17dpo, it was 970. Have my ultrasound on March 8th. I just wanted to say that I hope both our stories have wonderful endings. My email is: taking_baby_steps@yahoo.com if you ever need to chat.

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  4. Yay for great betas! And nausea!(at this point at least!)

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  5. Yahoooo!!! That's terrific!

    (and thanks for the nomination! It was such a nice thing to come home to yesterday... now I've gotta update my blog)

    Big hugs!

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  6. SOOOO happy to hear about your miracle!!! I can't wait to follow your pregnancy!

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  7. YES!!!!! so marvelous. so marvelous. miracles abound.

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  8. Yeah! Congratulations!!

    I totally understand your feeling of the "uncharted territory" strange, isn't it?

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  9. That's a terrific number! Congrats!

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  10. Fantastic beta!!!! So happy for you to be in this uncharted territory, soak up every fabulous minute of it:)

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  11. Great Beta! Don't panic too much about how many, Eileen's beta was 1958 at 17dpo and she is (only?) having twins... Her first beta was 653!!!

    http://eileenburnsjin.blogspot.com/2010/01/beta-2-unveiling.html

    Hope you're feeling well.

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  12. What wonderful uncharted territory to be in! Congratulations and enjoy every moment of your queasiness!

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  13. I checked your blog about half a dozen times yesterday waiting to hear about beta #2. I'm totally betting twins! How many more days till March 15th? Congratulations!!!!!!

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  14. Yay! I'm smelling the T word, but The Ides of March will tell us the truth! Any which way, it sounds good and strong, so that's great news!!

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  15. Thank goodness for healthy doubling numbers. Excited to see how many little people you're growing in there too, can't wait for Mar.15th for you.

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  16. Yippee!

    Goodness that's a long time to wait for the u/s. In the meantime you'll just have to revel in your fabulous numbers.

    Enjoy!

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  17. SQUEEEEEE!!!!! This is wonderful news!!! I also had off-the-charts betas, and was quite nervous myself. Look how it all turned out though! ;)

    I cannot wait to hear about your ultrasound. I begged for an earlier one to see yolk sacs and they eventually succumbed, but they totally thought I was a whack job already. March 15th is so close, but I am sure it feels a million miles away. I am thinking of you and your growing life!

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  18. YEAH BABY!!!! or BABIES!!!!!;) I'm super excited for you and look forward to supporting and cheering for you through the "uncharted waters". Today, I give you back you own words, "choose joy!" and Congrats!!!

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  19. Fantastic news! And like you said, a good day for miracles :)

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  20. FABULOUS NEWS!!!! I am thrilled. And FWIW, my betas with this pregnancy were almost identical (302 and then 1043) and I just have a singleton.

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  21. Thrilled for you! Congratulations!!!

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  22. Such great news! awesome beta!!!!! Very very very very happy your monday was a great one.
    I was hoping so hard.

    revel sweetie pie, REVEL.

    xxo
    kate

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  23. Congratulations on your miracle!!!! This is SO EXCITING!!!!!!

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  24. Hooray! Just keep picturing that beautiful, healthy babe growing in your generous body! Grow, baby, grow! Congrats!!! You will be in my prayers.

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  25. Woo hoo!!! Congratulations!!! Go betas, go!

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  26. Yikes! That is a hi number. What are you growing a whole scout troop in there? Congrats.

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  27. oops high number. I said my headache made my brain mushy.

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