Tuesday, March 2, 2010

5w5d. Really?

My average day looks like this:

Wake up. Feel pretty good. Then panic about feeling good. Surely should be feeling morning sickness as it is, in fact, morning? But then again, am only 5 weeks. So perhaps not. Poke boobs. Still sore. Relief. Shower, have one cup of coffee, which frankly, doesn't taste all that great. Go to work. Poke boobs intermittently throughout day, alternating with panic about not feeling nauseous. Then gag, cough, gag again, and feel relieved about sort-of nausea. But then panic that am actually creating gag reflex from personal panic about not feeling nauseous. So, poke boobs again. Still sore. Usually feel gag reflex shortly after eating, which surely is strange? Thought that morning sickness came from not eating? Poke boobs. Still sore. Feel momentary concern that someone at work will report me for molesting myself. But then again, probably not. Go home in afternoon because very, very tired. Cranky because must return to work in the evening. Sometimes forget am pregnant. Then realize this and panic because am feeling too good to be pregnant. Then calm self, as no reason to think anything is wrong. Poke boobs. Still sore.

I. am. exhausted. Mostly from the panic. And maybe the boob-poking.

Just under two weeks to go until my first ultrasound. On the one hand, I really wish I could get confirmation earlier that somebody is still in there. But on the other hand, this whole pregnancy thing is a big waiting game anyway, so I might as well practice right off the bat.

Sometimes I can hardly believe that I am nearly six weeks pregnant. Where did the time go? Then, at other times, I feel like I have been pregnant for four years and every day is creeping by.

Also, I feel carsick half the time. Like, for example, right now.

It's going to be a long nine months. This is for sure.

17 comments:

  1. I am 6w1d. I have no sore boobs, no m/s, no nausea, nothing. No symptoms whatever. I spend my whole day obsessing - poking, thinking of puking to see if it makes me sick, worrying, researching pregnancy symptoms. My u/s is on March 8th and I cannot wait. So, I completely understand what you are going through. Any way of getting an earlier u/s?

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  2. I am also 6w1d and the ms hit with a vengeance over this past weekend. Right around where you are now. Trust me, you don't want it. It is not fun. Yes, it is reassuring (I guess), but I would rather be poking my boobs.

    If I were you, I would protest for an earlier u/s! But, you are right - if you can wait it out, you will get to see more (like a heart beat and little gummy bear arms and legs) :-)

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  3. I surprised you have to wait two weeks for your u/s! Are you able to get one in your sixth week? If it makes you feel better, I'm 5w3d and my nausea is like carsickness. I guess usually it's not suppose to start until week six or after. Have faith, you are pregnant!

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  4. My symptoms were SOOO unreliable. One day they were there, the next they were gone. Sometimes I felt fine, the next minute I felt terrible. I didn't have any morning sickness until about 7 weeks and it went away at 10, so it wasn't around for long. Hang in there!

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  5. I'm not so into boob poking, but I do examine them closely every day. Sometimes (okay, usually) several times a day. I enlist my husband as well, asking him, Do they look bigger today? Do my nipples look different? He offers to measure by touch, but they're too tender and I have to swat him away.

    I don't have any morning sickness either. I know it would be extra reassuring, but I think we're better off with our exhaustion and boob obsessions!

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  6. My symptoms didn't show up until 6 weeks..literally to the day! Before that, I felt great! Some days were better than others..and I've had friends who didn't get sick at all and had perfectly healthy pregnancies. Oh yeah, and the boob obsession is completely normal! Enjoy this time!

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  8. Don't tempt fate with wanting morning sickness. You'll regret it. When I thought I was feeling to good and I begged for morning sickness... Morning sickness, heck, all day sickness is what I got. There would be times I would wake up from a dead sleep at 3am to run to the bathroom and vomit. And b/c I did well until 6w6d that sickness lasted for me until I was 15wks or so. So, instead of hoping symptoms start to appear for you soon, I'm going to hope bean in there, stays stuck fast, and that you don't experience anything remotely near what I did.

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  9. Yay for sore boobs! So far, so good!

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  10. i remember! course i didn't even know i was pregnant until 6 wks or so and my only symptom before was FATIGUE. sore boobs and fatigue... you've got classic early symptoms. but i remember...

    yes... a long 9 months... it is so hard to believe its really happening, esp before you're showing, but even later... even in labor if you're me!

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  11. I had ZERO symptoms until well into 8 weeks. Don't let it freak you out (I know, I know, easier said than done...)

    Fingers crossed for you!

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  12. I didn't really start feeling crappy until 7 weeks. It's so hard -- you want the validation. It does get easier, though. Hang in there!

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  13. You totally crack me up! Yay for sore boobs! :)

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  15. just found this post and it was like seeing my thoughts (and obsessive boob prodding) come to life! thank you so much for the reassurance I needed on my 5w5d and for making me smile :-)

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  16. True I am now 5d5w also feel a little sick in the morning but it get worse for me at night with restroom visit lol

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  17. True I am now 5d5w also feel a little sick in the morning but it get worse for me at night with restroom visit lol

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