Nothing left to do but wait.
I'm still "working," (quotes indicate that said "working" involves "showing up physically at work even though I hardly have anything to do at this point"). Mostly, I'm sticking around just enough so that I can hold off on starting my leave until either a.) the due date or b.) baby shows up.
Cervix check #2 yesterday indicated still about 1cm dilated, but now 65% effaced. From the brief googling I did when I got home, it sounds like most first-time births involve effacement first, so we're heading in the right direction.
The funny thing is, I've been SO eager for this show to get on the road, but when the doctor asked me yesterday if I wanted her to do anything to "speed things up," my first reaction was a quick, "NO!" Mostly because I'd rather let nature do its thing, but perhaps also indicating that I am slightly less ready than I would have myself believe. I can guarantee that I am ready to have this child exit my body. Am I ready to take that child home and parent it? Ummm.....
Yes. Am I scared? Yes. Am I worried? Yes. Am I beyond excited? Yes.
This last two-week wait is just as hard as the first one was.
I love the comparison of the last two week wait with the first!! You'll be a rockstar of a mom, don't worry :)
ReplyDeleteBeing a mom is incredible. You'll be shocked about what you're capable of and although it was tough on me at first, it has all been worth it. I think fear of the unknown was the worst part and it really hit me towards the end. You'll be amazing and there are lots of us new moms here to support you!!!
ReplyDeleteI'm so excited for you! It's so exciting, you're almost there! But please don't tell me there are any more 2 week waits!!
ReplyDeleteYour commentary on B&G just cracked me up, and I don't even watch that show! I was thinking the same thing the other day, how all of the sudden, I'm on the trendy train. How did IF go from being secret to trendy? *sigh*
trust your body, friend. you were made for this. all shall be well. soooo hard to wait. sooo close.
ReplyDeleteSo exciting. There's no way to really prepare for what's coming, so roll with it if you can!! I know.....WAAAAY easier said than done.
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